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bonar crump

bonar crump
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Monday, September 19, 2016

Sign the Petition


This Profiling witness/victim statement will prove to the State Legislature that profiling is a pervasive problem in Texas that requires legislative relief.

Texas Legislature

I have been the victim of, and/or have witnessed, the law enforcement practice of motorcycle profiling and discrimination in the state of Texas within the last five years.
Defined by statute, the unlawful practice of profiling occurs when law enforcement targets an individual displaying characteristics of a class that the officer believes more likely than others to commit a crime or be violent.
In terms of motorcycling, motorcycle profiling occurs when law enforcement targets an individual riding a motorcycle or wearing motorcycle related paraphernalia because that officer believes that motorcyclists are more likely than others to be guilty of a crime or be violent.
I believe that the practice of motorcycle profiling is an unlawful violation of the 1st Amendments guarantees of free expression and assembly, the 14th Amendment's equal protection guarantees, and the Texas Constitution.
Bonar Crump

For Immediate Release 09/16/2016

We have a willing sponsor for anti-motorcycle profiling legislation named Sen. Kirk Watson. Our primary effort right now is to collect the data necessary to forward legislation to the TX Senate during the first 60 days of the 2017 legislative session. The site and petition linked in this email is a reproduction of the same petition put forth in MD resulting in successful passage of legislation signed by their Governor on May 19, 2016. But first things first...this is TX and we need to understand the timelines we're dealing with.  
“To introduce a bill in the senate, a senator first must file the required number of copies of the bill with the secretary of the senate, who sequentially numbers each bill in the order in which it is received. The senate rules of procedure also permit unrestricted introduction of bills during the first 60 calendar days of each regular session. After the 60-day deadline, the introduction of any bill in the senate, other than a local bill, emergency appropriations, or emergency matters specifically submitted by the governor, requires the consent of at least four-fifths of the membership of the senate.”   
There's your sense of urgency. We need this bill introduced to the Senate before the end of February 2017. That means the data and supportive documentation necessary to pull this off has to be completed by end of October. Legislative session begins January 10,2017. If we miss this window of opportunity, we have to wait until opening of legislative session in 2019.
Bonar Crump
President - Grim Guardian MC
[McLennan Co. Inmate #171015 - Cell #J-136  > Incarcerated: 05/18/2015 - 06/01/2015]

Wednesday, January 16, 2013


As we analyze the projections of exponential growth pertaining to technology, we arrive at an idea some have referred to as the Singularity. The Singularity is actually a concept coming out of physics which can describe the point at the center of a black hole where all time, matter, and energy converge into one singular point and the very fabric of physics is torn into pieces. The concept of a wormhole is that at this point of singularity the physical state of the universe begins to fold in on itself creating a vacuum sucking everything from one point and expelling it out another. This would be like the connecting point of a circle. It is the starting point and ending point at the same time. It would be a loop of never ending time, matter, and energy. Ergo, the Singularity would be the point where we witness the beginning, end, and everything in between. Philosophically, the Singularity is the culmination of all that was and all that will be into one central location, time, and space. Singularity, in the philosophical sense, is the final realization of all known Truth.

Our religion is a philosophy. It is a set of beliefs guiding our worldview, influencing our behaviors, and regulating our understanding of the after-life. Those that consider themselves “very religious” pay close attention to the philosophical tenets of their shared organized religious beliefs. Others who consider themselves “unreligious” tend to pay closer attention to their existential intellectual observations when building a life philosophy. One group might be considered more stable and rooted in the philosophies which have been proven out over the test of time. The other group might be considered more nimble and sensitive to the evolving culture and world in which they presently live. The overall positive or negative evaluation of either group is wholly dependent upon the perspective one has at the moment of analysis. The ultimate conflict between the two groups is that the “very religious” see reality through the lens of their established philosophy while the “unreligious” develop their philosophy based on the lens of their own life experience. One believes that the entire grocery store of existence fits into their philosophical grocery cart. The other carefully chooses items off of the grocery shelves of existence in order to fill their philosophical grocery cart as best they can.

The Singularity, as discussed by Ray Kurzweil, is a point where informational and technological growth have increased exponentially along a long enough timeline that human ability to contain it, or even continue to fathom its full implications, fails entirely necessitating an evolutionary watershed moment where biological humans begin to mesh with technology and become cyborgs. The idea is that assimilation with such a rapidly advancing technology would be preferable to being left behind and eventually eliminated by a race of cybernetic intelligence that might look upon a purely biological human as we do an ant or a mosquito. Kurzweil’s Singularity is the coming together of humanity and technology in a way that blurs the lines between the two entirely resulting in a new form of existence which supersedes its predecessors.

Most religions (philosophies) share similar ideas of a spiritual Singularity. Whether discussing an after-life or contemplating an end-times scenario, various ideas of being reunited with one’s God, Creator, or Energy Source seem to look like a spiritual wormhole where one has looped back at the very end to the source of the very beginning. Singularity with one’s God, whether that God be energy or a being or a cosmic consciousness, seems to be an overwhelmingly accepted philosophy professed by every major religion, science, and belief system throughout all of human existence. For the most part we can all agree that we return to the original base form from which we have come indiscriminate of what our primary life experience has been. “Ashes to ashes…dust to dust.”

As one’s philosophical views become more forward-looking and organic, it becomes easier to navigate meaning in the contemporary world that we live in. With the exponential growth of world population, energy consumption, need for natural resources, and technology it seems highly unlikely that the philosophical worldviews established over the last 5,000 years could account for ALL that is happening now and about to happen in the next 50 years. For instance, technologically, the world of 2000 BC was much more similar to the world of 1500 AD than 1900 AD is to today. That means that the previous 4000 years of human existence are incredibly similar when using the last 150 years as a template of comparison. And it is certain that what is technologically possible 50 years from now is nowhere close to proving realistically viable today. This is the result of exponential growth in knowledge which spurns exponential growth in technology which spurns exponential growth in pursuit of Truth (or philosophy of existence).

In this sense, philosophical Singularity is the compressing together of these elements (knowledge, technology, and truth) into one singular place at one singular time when the very fabric of existence is torn and the beginning intersects with the end creating a loop, or wormhole, where all reality, perspective, and philosophy come together fully unified and fully revealed. For most, this spiritual Singularity is called “afterlife” or “judgment day”. It is where all misconceptions are left behind and truth is revealed without distraction of alternative theories. It is where truth becomes self-evident and reality is no longer dependent upon perspective. In a sense, this spiritual Singularity is the focal point of our most predominant religious philosophies from the ancient Egyptians to the American Indians to the contemporary Christians. Achieving spiritual Singularity with one’s deity drives the daily behaviors, politics, economics, and overall worldview of the majority of past and contemporary human society.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012


All of you out there who've made the Newtown, CT massacre about YOU should be ashamed of yourselves. From political agendas to unscrupulously subjective rantings about how God has abandoned our secular school system, please shut the fuck up.

Now is a time for mourning. Now is a time for sorrow. Now is a time for contemplation and resolve. Now is a time for grasping one another’s hands and quietly acknowledging that there will be families with presents under their trees this year which were meant to go to children that are no longer with us. It is incomprehensible. And, yet, it is survivable. Somehow, the worst victims of tragedy get better. Somehow, we always seem to heal. Somehow, we eventually accept these tragedies as a part of our new and future reality.

I’m not trying to teach anyone anything by writing these words. I’m just trying to stir it around and mix it in with the rest of my daily food so that maybe it can be palatable enough for me to gulp down. I’m too pissed off not to try to get this down the hatch so I can move forward. I’m pissed at every one of us—every one of our leaders—every one of our schools—every one of our families—and I resent the implication that ANY OF US knows a fucking thing about why this happened.

I resent the implication that ANY OF US understand anything at all about the list of massacres in each of the US States since the early 1800’s. 40 of our 50 States have experienced multiple instances of reckless, unconscionable waste of human life that NONE OF US can wrap our brains or hearts around.

If you really want to explain something to me then try making me understand why all of the malicious, malevolent, cowardly acts of mass homicide within my lifetime have been perpetrated by white men ages 20-35. You know what? Forget I even mentioned it because someone out there will actually try to answer the question. They’ll try to apply a logical answer to a systemic morphing psychological virus of predation.

News flash: seeking a purpose for everything and insisting on defining, labeling, and cataloging unimaginable chaos, depravity, and cowardice leads to a net gain of squat—nada—zilch. We have to wrestle with the reality that another white male between the ages of 20-35 will do this kind of thing again. We have to prepare ourselves for the inevitability that somewhere within our midst is more than one white man contemplating a way to “up the wager” and hurt us even more.

I am allowing myself the next 24 hours to continue visualizing these children screaming out and huddling in fetal positions as a white male stands over them and puts the barrel of a semi-automatic weapon right up to their terror-stricken faces and pulls the trigger. I think it’s important to burn that image in my mind. I think it’s important, somehow, in the sharing of grief and mourning and lamentations. But enough is enough. After the next 24 hours I’ve got to move forward. I’ve got to find the next level of grief. I’ve got to make up my mind that I will not be weakened or rendered motionless by my sorrow.

I’m going to add this experience to the collection of other tragic experiences I’ve witnessed and lived through, and I’m gonna keep sifting through the pile looking for ways to use these negative experiences for something positive. I’m gonna think about ways I can be more involved in the lives of abused children. I’m gonna think about the ways I can watch for troubled white men and bring them closer to me instead of pushing them farther away. I’m gonna take more responsibility for the fatherless and the widowed and the poor and the sick and the imprisoned. I’m gonna use these experiences to fortify my resolve that THIS CAN ALL WORK SOMEHOW.

Tragedy is supposed to evoke a heroic struggle instead of a wave of talking heads and brooding Facebookers relishing the opportunity to scream out their opinions yet again. The heroic struggle isn’t against legislation or hate groups. The heroic struggle is NOT any sort of monolithic idea or policy or attitude. The heroic struggle is a mosaic of hearts and hands and efforts and backgrounds and ideas all coming together to form a unified front of protection from the imminent threat of tragedy next time. There’s always a next time. And if next time isn’t met with cooperation instead of sanctimonious ideological segregation, then more children and teachers die.

And if that happens, we’ve all failed once again. 

Monday, August 6, 2012


When someone turns their back on you, it hurts. When you can tell that someone is talking about you to someone else in the room with the whispered warning of, “don’t look now, but guess who just showed up,” it pushes down on you like a ridiculously heavy backpack. When your very best efforts to please someone result in a dismissive lack of affirmation, it creates distance, anger, and resentment.

When a person is ugly or dirty or smelly or boisterous or crass or impatient or flamboyant we all treat them differently. We turn our back to them without realizing we’ve hurt them. We warn others in our group to be aware of “that person over there” without intent of malice. We dismissively nod thanks to them with a fake smile and hurried eyes if they engage us while unknowingly reaffirming a multitude of rejection stereotypes.

The “Homeless”—I don’t even know what that means anymore. I get that we’re talking about people that don’t have a home. We’re talking about individuals and families that lack the resources necessary to procure sustainable shelter. What I mean when I say that I don’t know what “homeless” means is that I need a definitive explanation of the word HOME.

I’m too philosophically driven to only accept HOME as the place where a person, family, or household lives. That’s the easy definition, but what about HOME as a safe place? A place where a person can find refuge and safety or live in security? What about a HOME office or HOME field advantage? What about a criticism that hits HOME or driving the nail HOME? What if I’m HOME free or happy to be HOME for the holidays?

Certainly, there are connotations of where someone dwells within each of these depictions, but it has to be about more than where someone physically resides. It has to do with one’s origins—less about geography and more about a sense of belonging.

HOME is more about where the heart lives and what the heart connects to than it is about where we keep our stuff.

If that’s true then I think more of us are “homeless” than we realize. I’ve known wealthy CEO’s and pillars of the community that were as homeless as any vagrant living under a bridge. I know families living in 6,000 sq. ft. houses just as homeless as the dirtiest bag lady on the street. Politicians, Clergy, Writers, Doctors, Educators, Sculptors, Executives, and Judges—all as homeless as anyone could ever be because their hearts don’t have a HOME.

When a heart doesn’t have a HOME (a place of safety and nurturing) it develops a sense of entitlement, self-importance, paranoia, and ultimately the mechanism of rejecting others before being rejected.

A heart needs a place to rest comfortably from time to time. A heart needs food and shelter. A heart needs to be fed compassion and trust and loyalty and love and respect in order to remain healthy. A healthy heart needs time to heal and time to rest and time to experience peace.

But that’s not all a heart needs!

A heart also needs exercise through acts of service to others. It needs work and responsibility and needs to be stretched. A healthy heart needs to perform. It needs cycles of rest and work, peace and stress, acceptance both received and given. A healthy heart HAS TO be used or else it decays. And once it has decayed for long enough it becomes a hardened lump of atrophied muscle capable of one thing only—self-preservation.

You’ve seen the street homeless with their dirty clothes, constant walking, bags upon bags of “stuff”, and distant stares shuffling down the street. They are in self-preservation mode. Their defenses acutely devised to keep you and everyone else away. Their trust has died. Their fears have overtaken them. They’ve had backs turned on them for so long that they wonder if they themselves actually exist. Their flamboyant behavior is a warning sign to stay away.

From a broken, lonely, depraved place where a healthy heart struggles to exist we all defend against the sadness, loneliness, and hopelessness we’ve suffered in our lives.

We are all homeless.
We are all dysfunctional.
We are all broken.
We are all HOMELESS.

Beware false promises of a HOME for your heart. Physical beauty, possessions, power, influence, control, and stature may be how we errantly label one’s identity, but none of these things provide a HOME for the heart. And once you find that true home for your heart, DO NOT abandon it for promises of something bigger and better. The most honorable, healing, peaceful, loving places a heart can call home are also, more often than not, the simplest places, things, and people in our lives.

Find a home for your heart and then go about the business of finding homes for other people’s hearts. Because if you are interested in fighting poverty, abuse, hunger, and hatred you need to understand that these are malignant tumors on society brought about by a culture of homeless hearts searching for significance through the exploitation of others.

The worst part about a heart without a home is NOT that it dies. The worst part is that it WANTS TO DIE but cannot. The worst part is that when it cannot die it feeds on others. The homeless heart, left unchecked, can destroy and consume and devastate anything in its path. It’s like a tornado—a resulting force of nature without any positive reason for existence. And often, just like that tornado, the chronically homeless heart is arbitrary about who or what it affects.

Here’s the magnificent part—when you are about the business of feeding compassion and trust and loyalty and love and respect to the hearts of others, your own heart is satisfied. It’s circular. It’s rhythmic. It’s organic. It’s what we call communal living and there is no individual achievement that can take its place.

A healthy home for a heart is NOT an efficiency apartment. It is a high school gymnasium filled with cots. Don’t buy into the idea of self-sufficiency. If you do, you might find a place for your stuff, but you will not find a place for your heart.

Think big and give big.